Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Still Unmotivated

Still unable to motivate myself. I did walk to the store which is only a 14 minute walk there and back. I did so to test out my Skechers Shape Ups (also hurt my feet, I can't win). I also stayed below my maximum calorie intake despite eating potato chips! I always measure out just 50g (one serving) so that I don't overindulge.

I hope my get-up-and-go returns soon because I do worry that I will stop all together if I can't get it together. It's pathetic that I can see that happening but not get my ass in gear to stop it. Pitty party for one!

Monday, July 30, 2012

I've fallen off the (food) wagon

My big, fat, unmotivated ass has become just that again.  Officially I'm down 14 pounds but I have not been very good for the past week with too many over calorie days and too few exercise days.  I did have to fight with myself tonight to not eat an ice cream after a very fatty dinner of ribs and rice.  As I write this I once again feel like bursting into tears, but now I realize that it's that most-unwonderful-time-of-the-month again and that last month I had an episode similar to this also.  I hope that I can get past this and continue on my big, fat, unmotivated journey.

I had my foot checked out today.  The doctor says it is okay and prescribed an anti-inflammatory cream to use on it.  I hope it helps.  The two times I worked out last week I felt minimal pain after but I am worried that when I go back to more frequent workouts that the pain will come back. 

I am going to write today off, which I am not proud of.  I just can't do it today, although I have done some house and yard work this evening which is more than I can say for most days.

Saturday, July 28, 2012

A Few Days Gone By

It's been a few days since my last post. Or more specifically my last "Big Fat" post. The last few days haven't been great but I haven't let it discourage me.

Wednesday was a family BBQ and I was not good with self control. Thursday was an outing to a friend's house with the kids, still lacking self control. And tonight (Friday) was a work outing, and I can only guess the calories of the dinner that was provided and I ate it all!

I only exercised on Thursday. I am having a hard time this week motivating myself to do it but once I start I don't want to stop. However, since I didn't actually start my workout until after 9pm, I had to stop at 10.

I have my Sports Doc appointment on Monday. My ankle hasn't been bothering me and the pain in my foot is minimal so I hope he/she doesn't think I'm nuts. I will let them know that I have reduced my workout frequency but that I'd really like to not have to take time off.

I am so overdue for a bike ride. I'm afraid that I have ruined any progress I may have made in distance. However with the heat and humidity it's far better to do what I can in my air-conditioned home. I should also try to get in a walk this weekend.

Monday, July 23, 2012

More Positive!

I was able to do 30 minutes on the Gazelle tonight (plus a 5 minute cool down) with no foot pain! Yay! It's not gone completely though as a bit of pain came after I was at rest for a while. I sure did sweat tonight, it was dripping good. I might have to use a towel when I work out. It's more of a motivation I think. To know that I'm sweating because what I'm doing is working! I love it!

Last night I did only a short workout on the Wii after vacuuming the living room. I did "my routine", which I've added an eleventh exercise to, and then I did ten minutes on the step. That's another thing that makes me sweat.

Working out is helping me feel better overall. I'm doing more around the house. And I feel more energy when I get home from work. My doctor had at one time suggested depression but the medicine made me sick so I didn't take it. Maybe he was right, but whatever I'm doing now is certainly giving me a more positive lookout on everything.

Sunday, July 22, 2012


The best indication I have received that I am achieving results hasn't been the numbers on the scale, or that my pants are getting too loose on me.  The best thing that happened is that I was looking for a bra to wear with a tank top and I decided to try on a bra was that I bought online but have never worn because it was so tight that it hurt.  I put it on and it fit perfectly!  I can't even describe how good that felt.  I certainly did not expect results in that area.  I mean eventually, sure, but now?  I've only lost 13.6 pounds (as of this morning).  It felt GREAT!!!!

I purchased a Nike+ Sensor on Friday.  I love it!  I used it for two short walks.  I don't have Nike+ shoes so I just tucked it in under the tongue and it worked great.  I can't even believe how hard a brisk walk is though.  I'm not sure that hard is the right word though.  The first walk I wore my Skechers, beautiful shoes, but my hip was hurting (I do have hip problems).  I blamed the shoes since they are quite flat and I am used to a bit of a rise (heel).  The second walk I wore my Nike's, but still had some hip pain.  Like anything else I just need to get used to it.

I haven't ridden the bike in a while, it's just so hot here right now.  It seems we are always under heat advisories.  Not to worry because it seems I have enough other options right now so I am not getting bored.

I like writing on here when I have positive things to say.  Even if no one reads it, this helps me think about my progress, about my results, and about what I want to do next.  ~TTYL!!!

Thursday, July 19, 2012

I Can't Believe I Said That!

After all these years (35) I finally like to do my exercise! So why do I have to be injured?!? I managed a 1/2 hour at least but had to stop due to the pain.  I have an appointment at a sports injury clinic in a week and a half and I can't wait!!! Hopefully the can recommend some sort of brace that will relieve the pain so I can do what I want to do!

Wednesday, July 18, 2012


Fabulous workout this evening on my Wii Fit.  I love when I'm dripping sweat when I'm done.  Ten minutes is still my maximum on the step, but it was only my second time with the raised step.  I'm thinking maybe two separate ten minute sessions with other exercises in between in order to work up to twenty.  I wrapped up my foot and ankle and although my foot pain had increased after doing some gardening when I got home from work, the pain was minimal while I was working out.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

My Big Fat Unmotivated Ass. . .again

After three days of no exercise I finally did a small workout on my Wii yesterday.  I bought a riser for my Balance Board so it is 3" higher.  I only did ten minutes of step though as it definitely increased the workout factor and I was just starting to drip sweat at the end.  I hope to increase to twenty minutes soon!  Tonight I have a bit of pain in my foot so I will take tonight off and resume again tomorrow.  I admit the more I don't exercise the harder it is to motivate myself.  Tomorrow I want to do step again though.  I am thinking of buying a Nike+ Sensor for my iPod and taking up walking.  I would like the sensor so to measure my distance so that I can push myself to go further each time.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Brief Update

It's been four days since my last post.  I apologize, but it's better to say nothing rather than repeat the same.

I have rested my foot for three days now.  There is still periodic pain.  I have made an appointment to see a sports medicine doctor but it's not until the end of the month.  I don't think it's serious but I would like to get it checked out so that maybe they can advise me on how to treat and prevent future pain or injury.  As for my eating, I would say I'm doing all right.  Yesterday I went to the lake and had several alcohol containing beverages, that was my only downfall for the day though.  I had weighed in on Saturday morning and I am now down 12.6 pounds.  I will try to remember my official weekly weigh-in tomorrow.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012


I totally failed at the Olive Garden yesterday.  Not only did I pig out on salad (although it tasted rather light on the dressing) but I also ate my entire entree, Linguine alla Marinara.  I only had an extra 1/2 of bread stick though.  It was so good though, not that good should be used as an excuse.  I'm just too. . .I don't know! I don't want to say "weak", I don't want to say "unmotivated".  I guess I should continue to say I'm not committed enough.

And then there's today. . .

I was doing well and was within my calorie limit but then my son brings me home a Tim Horton's Iced Capp Supreme!  I had to drink it, he was so proud of himself as I had given him some money to go buy himself one and he thought he'd get me one too.  Of coarse I didn't have to drink it all, but I did.

I burned 309 calories on the Gazelle.  However now I AM going to complain about how hard it was.  I have tendinitis in my right ankle.  On top of that for the past two weeks I have been having pain on the bottom right side of my right foot.  While I was exercising tonight both were causing me extreme discomfort.  I swear after 20 minutes I was almost in tears! Not just from the pain but because I didn't want to quit!  I don't know how to solve this pain and I don't want to take a break from exercising because first I'm scared that I wouldn't start again and second I can't burn as many calories any other way.

Monday, July 9, 2012

Four Weeks

Well, it has been four weeks and I am down 10.8 pounds.  Yay!  I wish that I could lose another 10 over the next four.  I am committed but I don't think I'm committed enough.  If I was I would exercise more and eat even better.  I am interested in running but I still don't have a treadmill and I am not confident enough to do it outside yet.

My friend wanted to go out for dinner tonight but all I could think was how I hadn't budgeted my calories for eating out today.  I was able to convince her to go tomorrow since I thought I should be home with my kids tonight.  We are going to the Olive Garden.  I plan to limit myself to one bread stick (wish me luck) and pig out on salad.  I will order an entree for the illusion and bring it home for my family to devour.


I had a great workout this evening.  This is the first time I would really say I was dripping sweat!  I mean I have felt it before but this time I started early and kept sweating throughout.  And I felt great!

I checked out the Olive Garden nutrition guide and I can't believe that one plate of salad with dressing has more calories than the Zuppa Toscana soup.  I am thinking that I should have soup but I love the salad sooooo much.  For my dinner I will likely order the Linguine alla Marinara which truthfully is what I usually order.  Simple but yummy and only 430 calories if I eat it all!  So one bread stick 150 calories, bowl of soup 170 calories, and entree 430 calories, I could get through dinner with just 750 calories.  I can certainly budget the rest of my day around that!

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Bad Again

I was bad again today. 

We went bowling today.  It was fun even though I'm bad at it.  I bought a pitcher of Pepsi for the kids and I had a small cup since I didn't think to bring my water bottle.  Not a big faux-pas, but afterwards we went out for dinner.  The restaurant we went to didn't offer much in terms of healthy choices.  They did have caesar salad, but that's still pretty calorie-filled.  I caved and ordered a burger. . .and fries.  I am so ashamed.  This whole week is a failure!  My only hope is that my weight has not increased when I weigh in on Monday. 

I will still exercise tonight.  I will burn about 260 calories on the Gazelle.  I would like to do more as well but we'll see how I feel.  I'd like to take a bike ride tonight but it's so hot and humid out that I should probably do something else indoors.


Sorry I've been MIA for a couple of days.  They were not great days for me.


My nieces birthday.  Dinner at Tony Roma's.  I tried, I really did, but my will-power escaped me.  It was so good!  A late evening bike ride helped me to burn some calories so I didn't blow my day too horribly.


Pot luck at work.  Too many people usually bring fruit and veggies, so I brought none for my snacks.  No one brought any!!! Ugh!!! 

After work I went to see Magic Mike with a friend.  The movie was yummy and so were the nachos! Then we went out to eat after.  I had sushi and yam fries.  So I blew my day to hell AND there was no exercise when I got home.


Today was better.  Eating back to normal and 30 minutes of exercise.  I feel so much better in terms of my big, fat, unmotivated ass. Now, to keep it up for the weekend!

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

PMS Lives Here

OMG! I am so cranky and emotional! My workout was horrible! I did Wii Fit today, and I was completely off balance.  I didn't even feel like doing it but I pushed myself and managed 39 minutes.  I have a Biggest Loser Wii game as well so I popped that in thinking that if I did something different maybe it would be better.  I  haven't used it in a couple years.  It doesn't let you erase your old profile so I continued on my old one.  The first workout wants me to do is 19 minutes of yoga.  I already did 17 minutes of yoga on Wii Fit, not-to-mention that some of the poses are NOT for beginners.  I was just so frustrated, I chose another program but by then I could just feel this pent up anger and wanting to cry for no reason so I quit.  I burned 155 calories.  I'll take it.  This is my first frustrating day and I am really hoping it doesn't set the tone for what's to come.

Yay Me!

Sunday night we ended up walking to the fireworks, about a kilometer each way. The whole family came so I couldn't ride my sons' bike. I walked a brisk pace as the kids rode their bikes, my hubby thought I was walking too fast which is a change because it's usually me telling him to slow down!

Today I made blueberry muffins, that I thought would be good for my breakfast at work this week. I don't think they're going to last long enough! I will at least get one tomorrow but the family has been gobbling them up. The rest of the day I did laundry and read. I did 30 minutes on the Gazelle and found that my eReader sits nicely on the display, so I read some more. After that I still wanted more. I am in disbelief myself! So I went on a short, ten minute (1.8km) bike ride as well!

I honestly can't believe how well I'm doing. Three weeks ago when I started this there was no way I would have believed if anyone told me I'd be going strong after three weeks. Now, here I am! Oh, by the way, I totally forgot to weigh in this morning so I'm going with yesterday's weigh in of 215.4 so I'm officially down 9.6 pounds! Yay me!

Blueberry Muffin Recipe

  • 1 1/4 cups quick cooking oats
  • 1 cup all-purpose flour
  • 1/3 cup white sugar
  • 1 tablespoon baking powder
  • 1/2 teaspoon salt
  • 1 cup milk
  • 1 egg
  • 1/4 cup vegetable oil
  • 2 cups blueberries, rinsed and drained

    1. Combine oats, flour, sugar, baking powder, and salt. Mix in milk, egg, and oil; mix just until dry ingredients are moistened. Fold in blueberries. Fill lined muffin cups with approx 1/3 cup batter. 
    2. Bake at 400 degrees F 15 minutes.  Increase time to 20 minutes if needed.

    Sunday, July 1, 2012

    Bike Ride x 2

    So, I took the kids to see the Avengers movie Saturday . It was brilliant. I would say my favorite super-hero movie EVER! Joss Whedon is genius! I ate nachos at the movie but still managed to stay under calories for the day!

    I promised my daughter we would go for a bike ride yesterday. So we did the same route as the other day and since I paced myself better I didn't feel as winded when we were back. My sister-in-law had asked to come and I didn't call her when we went so I went on a second bike ride with her. Almost the same distance! It was great! I'm still using my sons' bike so unless he wants to start riding with us I'll just continue to use his for now. The gel seat does help too. My butt doesn't hurt today, yay! I can't wait to go again, but it's definitely too hot during the day to go so it's an evening type of activity. Tonight we will ride our bikes to see the fireworks, it's Canada Day (Canada's Birthday). It's only about a kilometer each way.

    I cheated today, I weighed myself this morning. If I have a good day today then I will be down 4 pounds for the week when I do my official weigh-in tomorrow. I am making hamburgers for supper tonight with extra lean ground beef. Hopefully I don't over indulge!