Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Nachos and Oz

I have said this before and I will say it again. . .I'm sorry it has been a while between posts.  It's just that I don't have anything to talk about.  Nothing new and noteworthy has been happening, and I have had no new questions or revelations about my progress.  I'd rather not post just saying "today was a {fill-in-the-blank} day" or "this is what I ate", etc.  I need to be able to share something whether it be an accomplishment, a goal, a question, or even a frustration. 

I have made it to 30 minutes for three runs in a row now.  It's getting easier each time.  Not easy, just easier.  I imagine I should start trying for a longer distance but truthfully I'm not willing to commit to more time.  I suppose I could try running faster, but I don't want to commit the effort!  I know, I know, I should do one or the other already!  Let me think on it for a bit!

I took my kids to see Oz the Great and Powerful tonight.  I had nachos.  They are my favorite movie theatre treat and I have been looking forward to them all week!  I think it helps me to behave at other times if I already have something bad planned out.  That way I know I have to be good during the time leading up to it! 

It is spring break for the kids so tomorrow will likely involve eating on the go, and the weekend promises a birthday party and likely Easter dinner.   I will try my hardest to be good!  Willpower please don't fail me this week!

Thursday, March 21, 2013


I did it!  I made 30 minutes on my run last night!  I knew I had it in me, I just had to remember not to give up!  I felt good mentally afterwards, running definitely releases endorphins leaving me feeling that I am heading for some good days ahead (for food and exercise that is).

For the record, I did eat those cookies yesterday, but they saved me from a bigger calorie catastrophe. . .carrot cake!  I resisted the cake and ate my cookies and then I was satisfied.

Now here's the best news. . .I have officially lost fifty pounds! Nope, scratch that, fifty-one!  And it feels good!  I really feel like I should share my success with my friends (aka share this blog), however as proud as I am that I have lost fifty pounds, I also almost feel ashamed to admit that I had fifty pounds to lose in the first place.  I should have never had those first forty-five pounds to lose, I should have never let it get that bad.  I have to work up the courage to let it out there!  I can't believe how personal everything feels when I look at letting other people in.  I'm going to sit on it for a few days (or however long it takes) and hopefully work up the courage because I am actually VERY proud of myself for doing it!

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Looking Up

I finished off my last post by saying "There's always going to be some "down's" on this journey.  The important thing is not to give up and to know the "up's" will be there again soon!"  I am living by this right now because I am on a big slope of  "down",  and I really AM looking forward to the "up's" returning soon.  I know they are in there and I have to remember to find them soon!

I am hoping that today is the "up" day that I need.  I'm still super hungry (damn PMS) but I do plan on going for a run tonight.  I will also try my hardest to be good food-wise (although I probably will slip in a couple of small cookies!).  I really don't have a lot of time so the dishes will have to remain unwashed and probably a few other chores undone so that I can use the time for a run.

And I'm hoping it's a good run!  My body has had a four day rest from running so I am hoping to push it to 30 minutes again.  The rest of me is tired though.  I feel like if I can make the 30 minutes that I will be back climbing up-hill again.  I really want to be there!

Starting in a month I will be working a set shift at work.  I will no longer have to work the "late" shift and I am hoping that will help put difficult weeks, such as these, to a rest.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Not The Biggest Loser

I am not the Biggest Loser but I have lost 21.78% of my body weight so far.  I am not at a plateau but it is coming off slower and I understand that I need to get my ass in gear and do more if I want it to come off quicker.  I am not ready to dedicate myself to more.  When I'm ready, if I'm ready, I will know.  Right now I am content at continuing one teenie-tiny step at a time. 

I did have a "bad" week.  As I have said previously, my "bad" isn't even as bad as it really could be, or how bad it would have been nine months ago.  No weight lost, no weight gained since last Monday.  I am at 49 pounds lost.  Since I have already met my original goal of 45 pounds, every extra pound now is just a bonus.  PMS is killing me though!  Usually I want to eat everything in the house the day before, but this has been going on for three days!  Ugh! 

As for running, I managed 30 minutes last Wednesday, but every other time has been, well, unsuccessful.  I suppose I should look at every time I run as a success because at least I am trying, where as the mere thought of running a year ago would have had me cringing (or laughing). 

There's always going to be some "down's" on this journey.  The important thing is not to give up and to know the "up's" will be there again soon!

Friday, March 8, 2013

Plateau Perhaps

I really think that I have finally hit a plateau.  My weight has been teetering around 178 for the last month.  That's 47 pounds lost.  I really would like to get to 160 eventually but the thing is, I'm not really ready to change my current habits or break out a new workout routine, and I'm not willing to go to the gym.  Not yet.  Maybe never.  I still plan to maintain, and I hope to NEVER see a rise over 180 ever again!

Most of this past week's spare time has been spent spring cleaning.  There hasn't been time to run, but cleaning and vacuuming and washing floors burns calories too!  I feel a sense of satisfaction in that not only am I changing myself, but I'm changing the "world" around me.  I have gone through my closet and got rid of most of the clothes in there and hopefully I will go through my dressers this weekend to finish that task.  I finally have room to store my new, smaller clothes!!!

I did run tonight and I didn't make it far.  I don't know if it is because I haven't run or maybe it just wasn't a good night but I will do it again on Sunday and push a little harder.