Friday, August 21, 2015

Time to Continue on the Journey of My Big Fat Unmotivated Ass

Well, I never did make it by with an update as I intended in my last post.  I can't even tell you how July went. . .it's just too long gone.  I can tell you that my 5K did not really happen.  We went but we mostly walked, it was far too hot outside to run. August has brought summer holidays with lots of bad food choices, but I have always intended to return to my journey, and that time is near.

As I renew my journey I plan to eventually try a new path.  When it comes time to take that path, I will share my experience so that others can see if is a path for them also.  As with any path, if it doesn't lead where I want it too, I can always return to the trusted route.

I plan to weigh in on Monday to see the damage I have done this summer and I hope that will be the day that my journey continues again.  I have plans to go for a 5K walk with a partner, as we need to start being each others motivator to get our asses of the couch.  I would like to think that I will run more as well, even if I don't have a 5K planned.  I would still like to actually be able to run 5K one day. . .or maybe not. . .that sounds so hard.

Saturday, June 27, 2015

A Long Overdue Update

It's time for a long overdue update.  I made my DietBet weigh-in, which was a month ago now.

It was getting closer and I still had a bit to lose.  I had been neither good nor bad during the weekend leading up to the weigh-in and I had two days left before I could weigh-in.  Those two days I ate great and stayed away from carbs for the most part.  I went for a jog both days and had great calorie deficits while still getting enough to feed my body, but I was still .4 of a pound over.  Thankfully DietBet gives you two days to weigh in so I continued the third day of eating great. There was no way I could jog for a third day so I put on my runners and went and rang my cousins doorbell and said let's go for a walk and off we went for a 5K walk!  I made my weigh-in just by the hair of my chinny-chin-chin!

Since then it had been a series of ups and downs.  For two weeks I jogged and walked and did fairly well with my foods.  Then my sister came to town with my baby nephews and I ate bad food and only managed one 5K walk that week.  This week I was supposed to get back to normal, but laziness won and I ate all the food that I wanted without a care.  

Problem: two weeks until my 5K and I am nowhere near ready.  Thankfully it is not a serious 5K!  This weekend there are heat warnings but I do hope to start "training" again soon.  This week I did do two lunch time yoga sessions, but that doesn't help with the running part.

Well, that's it for now.  I hope to be by soon with a good update, but I'm not making any promises.

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Brief Update

It's amazing that I can let myself fuck up a week of great progress with two bad days because of PMS.  And to top it off I didn't get to go for my planned run as the weather was bad. I considered running in the rain, but the wind was quite a discouragement.  The weather today, kind of windy, no rain yet but it's coming.  However. . .[any men reading this should probably skip to the next paragraph]. . .I could probably go out for a run except day two (my first full day) is super heavy and my stomach is unpredictable so it's never wise to be far away from the house.  

Do I think I can get to 5k in seven weeks? Hell no!  I want to get to at least half plus a walk then the rest.  Big goal for me, I know, but I believe!

Maybe I should go for a run. . .LOL!

Sunday, May 31, 2015

Lifes Roadblocks

Things have been going pretty well, but sometimes life throws up more roadblocks than I care to go around.

"Running" (aka jogging) was a disaster!  Since my first attempt was awful, I decided that the best way back was to return to the Couch to 5K app.  I figured jumping in at week three was the best idea since I actually find weeks one and two complete torture.  Week three is a 90 second run, three minute run, 90 second run, three minute run.  I barely made the second three minute run.  I'm being overly dramatic, but OMG I thought I would die!  I couldn't even lift my water bottle to my mouth, I just walked for a couple minutes until I could drink!  The rest of the week (when I could go) was crappy so tomorrow (a week later) I will try it again.

At work, our big project is finally nearing an end.  However the celebrations seem to involve food so I had two really bad days last week, Thursday and Friday.  Those were the roadblocks I chose not to avoid.  I must stay in control for ten more days until I weigh in for my DietBet.  As of last Monday, I had 3.5 pounds to lose. . .I'm too scared to weigh in tomorrow. . .PMS is here too!

If only this was my "Roadblock" ;)
I would never avoid this one!
Someone posted something about weight loss not being a destination, and about being a lifestyle.  I completely disagree!  Yes, it is a lifestyle, but it's a journey with ups and downs.  You can't tell me that those with healthy lifestyles don't treat themselves once in a while.  As I have said many times, I can't see not letting myself have what I truly crave or else I would be miserable.  And that's a lifestyle I don't want to live.

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Little Tiny Giant Calories

Some days those calories add up a little faster than you realize. And then when you eat those extra two pierogies with dinner you realize your day is even worse! D'oh!!! The world will not end. I will continue. And that's the attitude you need. Now I just need to convince myself that I don't need a Slurpee today!

Those extra calories were my motivation to get up and go for a walk/jog. OMG! It was awful! I always walk for five minutes to warm up, then I wanted to jog 1k. Yup, just one kilometre. I only lasted 1/3 of a kilometre before I had to return to a walk.  Sooooo out of shape.  I did a 2.7 jog/walk in total, so I guess it was a good start. Now I just have to make sure I do it again. I almost can't believe that I once jogged almost 3k outside, and I was able to jog 5k on the treadmill.  

On the plus side, I burned those spare calories and should end the day with a deficit.  And. . .I will not have a Slurpee today.  (In case you don't know, Slurpees are my addiction and both times I lost weight, I had a Slurpee almost every day. Just imagine what I could do without Slurpees. . .never mind, not going to imagine that!  I need something to keep me satisfied enough to keep this weight away!  I could not do it if I felt deprived.)

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

It's a Roller Coaster and No, I Don't Want to Get Off

Yesterday I weighed in for another DietBet. This is another ride up the track of MY roller coaster. 

After my last post I saw other posts online about weight loss roller coasters. Those posts will tell you that roller coaster weight loss is not good, and really it is true, but I think that is more the case at the beginning of a weight loss journey. My roller coaster is the one that I want to be on because I reached my goal. And I want to enjoy my food when I can but keep myself in check when I get too out of control.  So while putting on a few pounds is the fun part (like going down the roller coaster), I must always return to the uphill part, that's not as fun, but it's necessary to keep the weight off.

In case I haven't mentioned this, my original goal was 180, and 175-180 seems to be the easiest to maintain for me.  Right now I am not willing to sacrifice any more food and as in my previous posts I have not been motivated to exercise.  So for now, I will hang out at this weight and who knows what I will decide to do in the future.

Thursday, April 16, 2015

Roller Coaster

It's a roller coaster but I don't want to get off.  Even if there are not enough highs, and too many lows on this ride.

I was doing great and had my pre- planned bad day on Friday to take my son to a movie.  I had nachos, my movie favorite.  Then Saturday came, and I was mostly good, but not good enough.  Sunday was a birthday with Pizza Hut pizza and Dairy Queen birthday cake!  Monday, I was mostly good again but let myself crack at the end of the day.  Tuesday, I had grand plans to be good, I was doing great, then my mom and I went to bingo (it keeps her happy). I brought veggies and dip, she brought Hickory Sticks and chocolate.  I know that I am able to say no, but I didn't.  Such bad choices and I keep on making them!

Tomorrow is another day, and I plan to start every day as a good one.  If I didn't then the last two and a half years would have been for nothing.  Don't give up.  Never give up.  Ride the roller coaster. . .BE the roller coaster, because a roller coaster track never ends, it just keeps going until you stop. Don't stop and you will get back up the hill again.