Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Little Tiny Giant Calories

Some days those calories add up a little faster than you realize. And then when you eat those extra two pierogies with dinner you realize your day is even worse! D'oh!!! The world will not end. I will continue. And that's the attitude you need. Now I just need to convince myself that I don't need a Slurpee today!

Those extra calories were my motivation to get up and go for a walk/jog. OMG! It was awful! I always walk for five minutes to warm up, then I wanted to jog 1k. Yup, just one kilometre. I only lasted 1/3 of a kilometre before I had to return to a walk.  Sooooo out of shape.  I did a 2.7 jog/walk in total, so I guess it was a good start. Now I just have to make sure I do it again. I almost can't believe that I once jogged almost 3k outside, and I was able to jog 5k on the treadmill.  

On the plus side, I burned those spare calories and should end the day with a deficit.  And. . .I will not have a Slurpee today.  (In case you don't know, Slurpees are my addiction and both times I lost weight, I had a Slurpee almost every day. Just imagine what I could do without Slurpees. . .never mind, not going to imagine that!  I need something to keep me satisfied enough to keep this weight away!  I could not do it if I felt deprived.)

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

It's a Roller Coaster and No, I Don't Want to Get Off

Yesterday I weighed in for another DietBet. This is another ride up the track of MY roller coaster. 

After my last post I saw other posts online about weight loss roller coasters. Those posts will tell you that roller coaster weight loss is not good, and really it is true, but I think that is more the case at the beginning of a weight loss journey. My roller coaster is the one that I want to be on because I reached my goal. And I want to enjoy my food when I can but keep myself in check when I get too out of control.  So while putting on a few pounds is the fun part (like going down the roller coaster), I must always return to the uphill part, that's not as fun, but it's necessary to keep the weight off.

In case I haven't mentioned this, my original goal was 180, and 175-180 seems to be the easiest to maintain for me.  Right now I am not willing to sacrifice any more food and as in my previous posts I have not been motivated to exercise.  So for now, I will hang out at this weight and who knows what I will decide to do in the future.

Thursday, April 16, 2015

Roller Coaster

It's a roller coaster but I don't want to get off.  Even if there are not enough highs, and too many lows on this ride.

I was doing great and had my pre- planned bad day on Friday to take my son to a movie.  I had nachos, my movie favorite.  Then Saturday came, and I was mostly good, but not good enough.  Sunday was a birthday with Pizza Hut pizza and Dairy Queen birthday cake!  Monday, I was mostly good again but let myself crack at the end of the day.  Tuesday, I had grand plans to be good, I was doing great, then my mom and I went to bingo (it keeps her happy). I brought veggies and dip, she brought Hickory Sticks and chocolate.  I know that I am able to say no, but I didn't.  Such bad choices and I keep on making them!

Tomorrow is another day, and I plan to start every day as a good one.  If I didn't then the last two and a half years would have been for nothing.  Don't give up.  Never give up.  Ride the roller coaster. . .BE the roller coaster, because a roller coaster track never ends, it just keeps going until you stop. Don't stop and you will get back up the hill again.

Friday, April 3, 2015

Easter: Good or Bad Day?

My food baby has grown and I'm not being very good job of shrinking it! I managed to have a couple of pretty good days but then followed them with a really bad day.  I have done well the last couple of days (despite Easter dinner) and I need to do extremely well for at least one more day before a very important weigh-in. . .I did another DietBet.

My Mom told me a couple months ago she was going to pick up a ham to cook for Easter.  I called her Saturday night to ask if there’s anything she forgot that I can pick up before the stores close.  Grocery stores here are closed at 11pm and are not open on Easter.  She tells me she didn’t get anything for Easter.  She “forgot” to get the ham (and also had nothing else like potatoes, for example).  So off to the store I go at 9:30 pm the night before Easter.  Thankfully they had many hams to choose from!  Making Easter dinner myself probably worked out better as I was able to make things that would be good for me to eat (like a kale salad from Costco). 

This weigh-out has one more catch; PMS. I should be good and bloated by Tuesday! Darn!  I'm drinking lots of water to try to keep it flushed out.  If I'm close on Tuesday, I can take that day and work my ass off so that maybe I can make it on Wednesday instead.

A friend posted this picture after I made this
post so I had to come back and add it!

Sunday, March 29, 2015

Finally, A Good Day

Everything in moderation. That has always been a big part of my journey. Today I was actually able to put philosophy to use.

Today was a good day. Mind you, I did have a late breakfast. It was difficult to get through the afternoon without snacking, but had an earlier than usual supper.  It's was just me and my daughter for supper and she asked for Subway.  I decided to get a salad, which was surprisingly delicious. I have been off of salads lately, I guess I had grown tired of them (not that I really had that many).

Immediately after supper, despite being full, I still wanted to eat. I drank water, and had a small chocolate treat at an attempt to satisfy myself.  My calories were low for the day, so about an hour and a half after dinner I decided to have chips and Queso.  Moderation.  I only had half a serving of chips.  It was mainly the cheese Quseo that I wanted anyways.

I still have the rest of the evening to get through. My taste buds seem happy though. Hopefully that was the last of my cravings for the day. There is still room for a little more indulgence in my day though.

Saturday, March 28, 2015

Ready or Not, Emphasis on the Not

Another day, another disaster. Where the hell is my willpower?  It's ridiculous, I don't say no to anything.  That's just not me, that's not what I do.  I refuse to say "I can't" say no, because it's not about "can't", it's about me just not saying no and being self-indulgent. I'm perfectly capable of saying no, but I don't.  I'm sure that the scale will show no progress, or worse, on Monday.

Yes, I am stress eating.  Work has been hectic and I have not been coping well.  Maybe I should be working on my stress management skills.  Ha ha!  Except I can't see myself doing that.  Stress releases cortisol (a hormone) and elevated cortisol contributes to an increased appetite and cravings for fattening food!  Sadly, exercise can help control cortisol levels but since I want to eat yummy, fattening foods, I don't want to exercise.  Vicious cycle entered.

I'm back to "you have to be ready".  You will know you are not ready when you continue to fall.  That doesn't mean you can't try to see if you're ready every day until the day comes when you realize you really are.

Thursday, March 26, 2015

Blowing It

Wow, am I ever blowing it.  This shows you that it isn't always going to be easy but that doesn't mean you throw in the towel (or bagel!) and walk away.  You have to remember that tomorrow is another day for you to work on yourself again.  I'm not going to give up.  I have been on this journey for too long to give up.  I still think of where I was before I started this journey and I know that I never want to go back there. 

(A repeat, but I love this)

I still plan to run.  Not today and maybe not tomorrow, but I have a new 5K to train for and four months to do it.  Right now I am positive about training as I have a lot of time, but I have to remind myself not to cut it too short like I did last year.  The ground is starting to dry, but the pavement is covered in sand and rocks so it is dangerous.  I have been keeping my eyes open to see which way to go that is safest. . .maybe by next week I can go.

Next week. . .spring break for the kiddies.  My son is going away to see his Aunt and cousins on a plane, by himself, for the first time alone. . .just breathe!  My daughter will be here and I have booked a few days off.  I'm thinking a movie for sure and who knows what else.  I may have to challenge myself to NOT have nachos which are my movie theatre weakness.  I will see how things go next week and how bad next weeks weigh-in is first.  Other than that, I am looking forward to a few days off from work. . .and maybe that will motivate me to run!