Thursday, March 26, 2015

Blowing It

Wow, am I ever blowing it.  This shows you that it isn't always going to be easy but that doesn't mean you throw in the towel (or bagel!) and walk away.  You have to remember that tomorrow is another day for you to work on yourself again.  I'm not going to give up.  I have been on this journey for too long to give up.  I still think of where I was before I started this journey and I know that I never want to go back there. 

(A repeat, but I love this)

I still plan to run.  Not today and maybe not tomorrow, but I have a new 5K to train for and four months to do it.  Right now I am positive about training as I have a lot of time, but I have to remind myself not to cut it too short like I did last year.  The ground is starting to dry, but the pavement is covered in sand and rocks so it is dangerous.  I have been keeping my eyes open to see which way to go that is safest. . .maybe by next week I can go.

Next week. . .spring break for the kiddies.  My son is going away to see his Aunt and cousins on a plane, by himself, for the first time alone. . .just breathe!  My daughter will be here and I have booked a few days off.  I'm thinking a movie for sure and who knows what else.  I may have to challenge myself to NOT have nachos which are my movie theatre weakness.  I will see how things go next week and how bad next weeks weigh-in is first.  Other than that, I am looking forward to a few days off from work. . .and maybe that will motivate me to run!

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Ups and Downs, Starting on a Down

Life is a series of ups and downs.  To me, so is this weight loss journey.  

I had brilliant plans of getting back to running and eating better starting yesterday, only to wind up the day in bed with a migraine; nausea and all.  Today I was better but I could still feel the effects of yesterday.  I felt the urge to eat, and I did.  It was bad.  Day two and I have already fallen.  I will get back up tomorrow and plan for a good day.

The other problem with my plan of running was it snowed again!  Just when everything was melting and drying up nicely!  So I may be back to the treadmill, but I need to do it!

A small update on Chris Powell's Choose to Lose.  I did read most of the book (by most, I mean I stopped at recipes).  At this time, I have chosen not to continue as I am just not willing to commit to the lifestyle the book promotes right now (or maybe never).  As with all "diet" and lifestyle books I have read, I have certainly learned new ideas that I will take away from the book and continue with during my journey.

Tomorrow is another day and the journey will continue as it does (and will) every day that I wake up.

Thursday, March 19, 2015

Slipping, Sliding, Falling and Getting Back Up to Do It Again

The slope is slippery and it keeps getting steeper and steeper.  I'm sliding, I'm sliding, and I can't seem to grab anything to stop my fall.  Now the ice is melting and it reveals the dirt and gravel underneath.  As it dries, the dirt becomes loose, and though difficult to maintain good traction, the slope will be climbed again.  There may be some brief slips but I will regain my grip and climb back up to achieve my goals.

I have not kept to my 1700 calorie per day maintenance goal.  I have been eating everything I want and even let the portion control slide.  It's no easy task to return to behaving myself, but I will try.  Hell, I don't just want to try, I'm going to do it. That's the attitude I should embrace!

I have always said you need to be ready for this, and I don't feel like I am right now, but that doesn't me I can't try.  And if I fall again, I will get back up and do it again.

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Success and a New Outlook

I spent the weekend eating as best I could, avoiding salt and carbs, and drinking a ton of water.  Saturday breakfast was eggs with Mrs. Dash seasoning, lunch was a protein shake with fresh strawberries, dinner was a juicy chicken breast and homemade air-fried french fries (potatoes probably not the best choice).  Sunday breakfast was eggs with a low sodium salsa for seasoning, lunch was a protein shake again with banana and strawberries, dinner a basa fish fillet dipped in an egg, garlic, and oregano mixture, then fried in a pan lightly sprayed with oil.

I also did the drenched workout on Saturday and Sunday (in addition to last Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday).  My legs were certainly tired of that 8% incline!  I still felt like jell-o legs walking up the stairs at work Monday morning.

And I made my DietBet!

I also learned something.

My body is happiest where it is right now, or at least I am happy with it.  I had to work so hard to get rid of those last couple pounds and I have to admit I am not willing to do that all the time.  Sure, I'll count my calories and hopefully keep up the running, especially once spring comes and I can get outside.  But I am now happy with maintenance because I'm not willing to bust my ass to lose any more weight.  

If my weight creeps up, I will ensure that I am stricter with myself.  For now, I will return to 1700 calories a day (maintenance calories) and allow myself that one "bad" day per week.  (I had the bad day today and it was great!!)

Monday, January 26, 2015

Miss and HIIT

It seems the weekend comes and I forget to do things like drink enough water and take my vitamins.  I guess it's because during the week my days are more structured while being at work.  For example, Saturday I was out all day and should have brought or stopped to get some water and wasn't home to take my vitamins nor did I have them with me.  During the week I am usually at my desk so I keep my vitamins in front I me to take with lunch and if I feel hungry I try to grab a drink of water first.

I plan to real keep my water intake up this week as I would like to flush my system of any remaining bloating.  I also plan to keep my sodium intake down this coming weekend so that I don't retain water and hopefully can pass my weigh-in next Monday.

Today I am going to try a HIIT treadmill workout.  It's only 15 minutes but it looks hard!  It involves an incline that gets up to 8% and I have never jogged on an incline, never mind run, AND it calls for runs and sprints!  I will make this a two part post tonight and continue once I get back with my results. . .

It's the first 15 minutes (part 1) of this workout from Women's Health magazine.

Okay, so I was seriously worried that I would only make it half way, but I did it! And do you know what? It wasn't that bad. I mean, it was bad, but not nearly as bad as I expected.  And do you know what else?  I might just do it again tomorrow!

Friday, January 23, 2015

I Can Do It! And I Am!

My weigh in on Tuesday showed that I have 6 1/2 pounds to lose by the time I weigh in on February 2nd.  Hard, yes, but I won't say impossible.  I am still planning on giving it my all and not giving up no matter how crazy it sounds.  Having this goal has helped to keep me in line and to not have those little treats that are so easy to to give in to.  It has kept me from taking seconds, no matter how small the portion, and from grabbing a quick snack from leftovers.

It is hard.  Wednesday I increased my treadmill jogging time from 9 minutes to 16 minutes (the time is broken into smaller portions with walking between several minutes of jogging).  The last five minutes was hard but I kept telling myself "it's only a few more minutes, I can do it".  Tonight was even harder, and I was telling myself that with every jog.  My phone reminder "I'm worth it" even popped up at the perfect time to remind me that I am doing this for me.

Yesterday I forgot my breakfast at home, yikes!  I decided to grab a breakfast sandwich from Starbucks but I was sure to research the nutrition first and went in with several options just in case they were out of any of my choices:

  • Reduced-Fat Bacon Style Turkey, White Cheddar & Egg White English Muffin Sandwich:   230 calories, 6 grams of fat (I was able to get this one)
  • Spinach, Feta & Egg White Breakfast Wrap: 290 calories, 10 grams of fat
  • Egg & Cheddar Breakfast Sandwich: 280 calories, 13 grams of fat
It wasn't as good as the picture but it
served the purpose!
As a backup plan, I could also choose oatmeal (160 calories, 2.5 grams of fat) with maple brown sugar (add 50 calories, 0 fat) or a fruit, nut, and seed topping (add 70 calories and 3 grams of fat). I certainly didn't want a repeat of Monday's disaster where my uninformed decision to have a peppermint mocha added an unnecessary 320 calories to my day.

Also yesterday I dropped my kids off at karate and went to run some errands. On the way back to pick them up I was hungry and needed to resist making a bad choice in the moment of hunger so I stopped at the grocery store instead. I picked up a veggie tray and sat in the car and ate while they were still in class. I was pretty proud of myself for making the better choice!

Today was a little harder yet as I really want junk! I won't do it though so I picked up some new protein powder after my run as I have been meaning to pick up some vanilla flavoured powder. I had a cup of that when I got home and immediately felt satisfied.

Monday, January 19, 2015

An Error in Judgement

I didn't realize the horrifically bad decision I made this morning at Starbucks until I was logging my food just now. Influenced by PMS, I ordered a grande peppermint mocha, no whip. However, I now know that this has over 330 calories! I've been trying so hard and succeeding and then I make a mistake this big. 

I did jog on the treadmill this evening, so I still have a deficit for the day.  It's not as large as I would like now though.  I also jogged on the spot a bit this evening in an effort to reach 10,000 steps today (success).

I will weigh myself in the morning to see how far I have to go.  I am hoping for eight pounds now that I have resumed my regularly scheduled life.  The scale battery was dead today as I would normally weigh in on Monday.