Monday, August 21, 2017

Day 2

I'm not sure why, but I haven't shared with anyone that I have restarted this journey. I did better, I think, the first time around when no one knew what I had set out to do, so maybe I'll keep it quiet for now. I have plans on Friday that will probably have a cheat meal involved, but so far, a whole two days in, I have no desire to cheat.

I have done well these first two days. I know it's only two days but each day I do well is one step towards success. I did a two day cleanse, and my eating is on point. The next step is to get some activity happening. My step count was low today because I didn't walk the mall at lunch, so I will need to work on getting active on days like today.

I will weigh in on Friday morning to see the results of the cleanse and the controlled eating. Perhaps Fridays should be my weigh-in day since my cheat meal will likely happen on the weekends. As in the past, I will call them pre-planned self-sabotage days! 😉

I can't update every day as I don't have a lot to say, but I still need to try to keep this journal of my journey updated. I hope I can stick to it!

Sunday, August 20, 2017

And a Whole New BIG FAT DAY ONE!!!

Once upon a time, I lost 50 pounds. Actually, it was 60, but I put 10 back on and stayed there for a good while. I was good with that weight, 50 pounds was no small feat, and I was happy there. For the last year I have had several ups and downs with my weight and right now I am up 20 pounds which horrifies me. I cannot go up any further, I need to get my ass in gear! However, I am feeling greatly unmotivated.

I haven't posted since my last re-start in January. When I read that post I realized that I am in the exact same spot now as I was then. I am not very good at this obviously. This time I need to find the attitude that I had when I first started this journey five years ago. I also need to take the time to update this journal and keep myself on track. As of today I am hopeful, but we all know tomorrow can be a completely new story. Wish me luck!!!

Monday, January 16, 2017

A Whole New Lazy Big Fat Unmotivated Ass

I know I fell off the earth after my last post and I could give you a ton of excuses if I thought about it, but I really had nothing to say. It was exercise and food, that was all, I met my goal, then I blew it bad.

Let's call today "Day 0".  

After a weekend of bad, I weighed myself and it turns out that I weigh more then I have in FOUR years. Is that depressing? Hell yes! I looked in the mirror and I could see it too. In fact I saw it all day before I even weighed myself, and I already knew. (Yes, I weighed myself after dinner but it's not like I'm going to magically lose five pounds or more overnight!)

I have ALWAYS said you have to be ready to lose weight. I don't feel ready. The only thing I feel ready to do is cry. And I only have myself to blame. These feelings are kind of overwhelming because they are difficult to describe. I am angry with myself for sure. Yet I still have no desire to exercise.

I think because I know how long it took to lose and how dedicated I was may be what is making me angry with myself. I consciously let myself do this to me without really taking into account of how it would make me feel when it was time to deal with the consequences.

I am really hoping that this is just a bad day and that I can pull myself out of this funk tomorrow. I have food ready to be prepped and I must plan to exercise tomorrow night. Tonight I just might have to go to bed early to put this misery I feel behind me.

Thursday, October 6, 2016

EXCUSES!!! I'm Full of Them.

After a mediocre week two, I decided I needed to kick it back up for week three. And then came the flu. Apparently I can fight colds like a superhero, but the flu, not so much. The worst is that I didn't even lose any weight from it.  Even on the mend I was tired, I was weak, and I was lazy.

So along comes week four, and I have a couple of Jets shifts, and also a game to attend. I end up barely exercising in week four either. I was tired, I was LAZY.

Seriously, this is not how it is supposed to be. I am supposed to do well, I am supposed to inspire. Instead, I just suck.

On the other hand, I still see progress. I may only be down 4.4 pounds since day one (not bad in my own opinion) but there is definitely shape changes happening. I love, love, love my calf muscles. However, I HATE Jillian! She's such a bitch! I cannot possibly jump up and down for two minutes straight!!! Ugh! It's not that I get winded, it's that my legs want to collapse. I just keep telling myself that it will get better. . .and I keep hoping it does. Maybe someday. (And maybe she's not a bitch but sometimes I feel that way.)

So I just peeked back at the first month of my blog at start of my weight loss journey, and I see many ups and downs. This makes me realize that this is all part of the journey and we just have to keep going. Why? Because in another four weeks, I want to be a better me.  

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Week Two. . .Uh Oh!!!

Week two did not start off as well as week one. I had my first cheat day. . .or what I prefer to call a "self-sabotage" day! I was worse then I had planned though and I actually felt guilty after, probably because I also went two days without exercise. When I did workout after those two days, my body ached, and I had trouble completing some of the exercises! I did not let that discourage me.

Monday came and I was pleasantly surprised that I didn't gain with that cheat day, but then came another cheat day (unplanned. . .it happens sometimes). With that happening and PMS, I decided to wait until next week to weigh in again.

I am not sure why, but I am forgetting to drink my water. My first time around I drank tons of water, not sure why I haven't restarted that habit yet. Water is so important! I must make that a priority as well!

Sometimes life gets in the way of the best made plans but it is important to keep going. Don't let a bad day or two send you in the wrong direction.

Saturday, September 17, 2016

Another Week One

Here I am again! Time to start a new journey (or actually continue on the old one). I must confess that I put on too much weight the last few months. I planned on many occasions to be better, but as I have always said, you have to be ready. If you're not ready you WILL fall off the food wagon. So I did fall off, a few times.

This time I have gathered a group of friends to join me on a 90 day health and weight loss challenge. They are my inspiration to succeed because I cannot fail them, and I cannot fail me.

So there I was again, experiencing ANOTHER day one! I'm not near as heavy as my first day one, and this time I am motivated to lose it. Day one was great! I decided to try out Jillian Michaels Shred again, although I was very afraid of not being able to sit down the next day (as with my first time around that I did it). I died!! Obviously not, otherwise I wouldn't be here writing this. I didn't make it. My endurance was non-existent and I actually sat and watched the end of the workout so that I knew what I had in-store for the next time.

And day two came with pain that grew greater during the day, but not awful, phew!!!

Day three was the first day that I had trouble with hunger. When I looked back at my very first time around, my blog post said "Today I did feel hungry for the first time." It must be a day three thing. I did the Shred again and made it to the end with short breaks when I couldn't keep up.

Then it was the weekend. . .and I worried because sometimes bad food and laziness come with the weekend but I did amazingly well. Day four I did a 3K walk. I did the shred on day five and it was so much better.  I still have a way to go to get through without a break, but my endurance is quickly improving. I also went for a 5K walk on day five!

On day six food became an issue and I think that was because I needed protein but in the form of meat. I am a protein addict, and apparently a protein shake is insufficient for that craving. I have added some jerky to my snack supply at work!

Day seven I realized that own my need to get exercise of some sort incorporated into my day had taken over. Still not making it through the whole workout without slowing down, but getting better every time! :)

Overall, I thing my week one went pretty well. A weight loss journey is not easy to start. . .if it was then everyone would do it. The final result of my work, 2.2 pounds, was satisfying, but I still have a long way to go!

Sunday, February 28, 2016

Bumps in my Journey

My weight loss journey has been long because it never really ends. It keeps leading me through ups and downs, losses and gains. For the last 3 1/2 years I have lived this journey but as long as I stay on this path I am going to be okay. Even though I am having a hard time right now, I have never been perfect at this.

It has been a while since my last post, which was my 90-day It Works! review. I have continued on my Greens and have remained mostly healthy.  I had a brief but easy bout of the flu. While my daughter was horribly sick with the cold and flu for 4 1/2 days, I had one day of minor flu symptoms and took an extra day off to recover as it seemed too short to be true! Everyone that has had the cold and flu around me has had a hard time shaking it. Why did I get off so easy? I credit taking my Greens twice a day!

I have also continued the Fat Fighters (Formula FF) which I either take after my largest meal of the day (usually dinner), or my unhealthiest meal. They do indeed take the edge off my evening cravings.

I did not continue the Thermofit as I ran out and did not re-order. I was in a period of time that was seemingly easy so I decided that I didn't need them. Now I am thinking I need them again as one of the benefits of Thermofit is reduced appetite.

SO. . .now seems to be the perfect time to put my It Works products to another test. Or more specifically the Thermofit. Starting March 3rd I'm going to start another 90-day challenge. It's time to re-loose some pounds! Taking two Thermofit during the day will help with my daytime snacking problems, and I will still take my Fat Fighters to help reduce my evening cravings.

If you wish to join me (there will be prizes!), please contact me here or email for more information on the challenge.