Friday, September 8, 2017

Day 4

So I know the time line doesn't make sense but I started a 90 day challenge on Tuesday, so today is day 4 of that challenge, and day 4 of my do-over. On Tuesday I weighed in at my heaviest since I started my weight loss journey five years ago.




These 4 days have been great. I haven't struggled too much with food thankfully. I started with an It Works Cleanse. It's a two day cleanse designed to promote healthy colon function. Then on day 2 I started my journey with Thrive. I have nothing amazing to report about that yet. I have already done two three-day trials previously, and I have always felt like I have needed longer, so today is day three again, but this time I get to go until I stop! I am excited to see if I feel any results. Better sleep and less aches and pains are part of the "promises", and those two things could help to promote my motivation.

One thing I am lacking is the drive to work out. I am just not there mentally (and that could be related to being so tired all the time). Weight loss and fitness are super mental, and some people don't understand that. Especially those that are already fit. One of my biggest pet-peeves are people who used to be overweight who look down at people who are obese. It's like they forget what it was like to be there. Thankfully I know that I am at the edge of getting my own self motivated, and I am sure it is coming. 


Sunday, September 3, 2017

Change is Coming Soon!!!

I'm actually looking forward to my upcoming 90-day challenge! What I am not looking forward to is stepping on the scale and seeing what kind of damage I have done. Yes, my day one was 2 weeks ago, but that turned into a disaster. I have already said there is thinking you are ready, and actually being ready. The difference being that you'll know you were not ready when you fall off the wagon.  Right now, I feel ready. 

It's going to be hard. . .it always is. BUT I have done it before and I WILL do it again. 


Once upon a time I lost 60 pounds. . .now I'm pretty sure I have now put at least 1/2 that back on, so my goal is 20 pounds. This is not unrealistic. This is a very reasonable and obtainable goal. Weight loss is very mental in my opinion so I really have to work on being stronger then myself!

And if you are interested in this 90 day weight loss challenge,  please feel welcome to leave a comment, or if you prefer to be private you can DM me on Instagram, @andreasweets1.

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Disaster. . .but a new plan

Things are not going great. I did lose 0.6 of a pound last week, so I guess that's better then none. My self-control has been a disaster, but I am looking at the bright side. . .my official 90-day weight loss challenge doesn't start until Tuesday. So now I'm thinking I might was well enjoy myself while I can. My original thought had been to lose a bit before the challenge because I was ashamed of what I had gained, but at this point, it's not too promising.



I am also going to be trying something new! A friend has been posting about Thrive by Le-Vel*, and how good she's been feeling. Her husband has been using it as well and has lost 16 pounds in a month! Of course I'm always interested in trying new things, especially if they might help me make progress. And I need more energy, and I need an appetite suppressant, so the Thrive Experience I have chosen is a weight-loss combo. 



Just to clarify, yes, I am still an It Works girl. Love the products! The Greens have kept me cold free since November and even that was a tiny, brief cold. Before that, a year cold-free.  I am never against trying something new and I personally see no reason why I can't try another product from another company. 



*If you are interested in learning more about Thrive, please visit magickat4.Le-Vel.com and create a FREE, no obligation, customer account. All you have to provide is an email address and your name to do so. Then you can view the product and pricing.

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Losing, but not in the good way

I'm losing the food battle today. I was good and then a co-worker wanted fries and I couldn't didn't say no, in fact, I drove her there!!!  I am slightly over my calories and I'm feeling so hungry. Not every day can be perfect, but I will fight to do my best!



Tomorrow is another day which will have its own challenges, I'm sure. I'm not throwing in the towel. I will keep fighting tomorrow, and the next day and the next day and so on!



So I'm getting ready for bed the other night and hubby is making a salad to take to work with him for lunch. He has also bought cereal that he likes to eat for breakfast before work. This is great because he usually has Tim Hortons for breakfast, and then a chocolate bar or some junk for lunch. I was suddenly hopeful that maybe his health kick would help with my commitment. However, I'm not sure how far he will go, because once I was in bed I heard him go in the cupboard for chips {insert face palm}. At least he is making better choices when he cooks now so I am benefiting so far at least!

Monday, August 21, 2017

Day 2

I'm not sure why, but I haven't shared with anyone that I have restarted this journey. I did better, I think, the first time around when no one knew what I had set out to do, so maybe I'll keep it quiet for now. I have plans on Friday that will probably have a cheat meal involved, but so far, a whole two days in, I have no desire to cheat.

I have done well these first two days. I know it's only two days but each day I do well is one step towards success. I did a two day cleanse, and my eating is on point. The next step is to get some activity happening. My step count was low today because I didn't walk the mall at lunch, so I will need to work on getting active on days like today.

I will weigh in on Friday morning to see the results of the cleanse and the controlled eating. Perhaps Fridays should be my weigh-in day since my cheat meal will likely happen on the weekends. As in the past, I will call them pre-planned self-sabotage days! 😉

I can't update every day as I don't have a lot to say, but I still need to try to keep this journal of my journey updated. I hope I can stick to it!


Sunday, August 20, 2017

And a Whole New BIG FAT DAY ONE!!!

Once upon a time, I lost 50 pounds. Actually, it was 60, but I put 10 back on and stayed there for a good while. I was good with that weight, 50 pounds was no small feat, and I was happy there. For the last year I have had several ups and downs with my weight and right now I am up 20 pounds which horrifies me. I cannot go up any further, I need to get my ass in gear! However, I am feeling greatly unmotivated.

I haven't posted since my last re-start in January. When I read that post I realized that I am in the exact same spot now as I was then. I am not very good at this obviously. This time I need to find the attitude that I had when I first started this journey five years ago. I also need to take the time to update this journal and keep myself on track. As of today I am hopeful, but we all know tomorrow can be a completely new story. Wish me luck!!!


Monday, January 16, 2017

A Whole New Lazy Big Fat Unmotivated Ass

I know I fell off the earth after my last post and I could give you a ton of excuses if I thought about it, but I really had nothing to say. It was exercise and food, that was all, I met my goal, then I blew it bad.

Let's call today "Day 0".  

After a weekend of bad, I weighed myself and it turns out that I weigh more then I have in FOUR years. Is that depressing? Hell yes! I looked in the mirror and I could see it too. In fact I saw it all day before I even weighed myself, and I already knew. (Yes, I weighed myself after dinner but it's not like I'm going to magically lose five pounds or more overnight!)

I have ALWAYS said you have to be ready to lose weight. I don't feel ready. The only thing I feel ready to do is cry. And I only have myself to blame. These feelings are kind of overwhelming because they are difficult to describe. I am angry with myself for sure. Yet I still have no desire to exercise.

I think because I know how long it took to lose and how dedicated I was may be what is making me angry with myself. I consciously let myself do this to me without really taking into account of how it would make me feel when it was time to deal with the consequences.

I am really hoping that this is just a bad day and that I can pull myself out of this funk tomorrow. I have food ready to be prepped and I must plan to exercise tomorrow night. Tonight I just might have to go to bed early to put this misery I feel behind me.