Wednesday, July 31, 2013

I Want to Run

I know what it is that is pulling me down.  I NEED to exercise.  When I exercise I don't want to eat all the time.  When I'm done I may want to have a snack (sometimes bad), but usually I just want to be good.

I have never been a gym person.  I really have no interest in staying after work to use the gym either. I have thought about going to a gym outside of work, but I really can't see myself making that kind of commitment.

I want to run.

I still have some pain in my foot when I walk a small distance, but it is minor. I also get some numbness in my toes. I'm not sure what that signals.

I want to run.

"Two more weeks" I tell myself. Then I will start from scratch. This time I want to do the Couch to 10K.  It has been six weeks since I was injured so I figure that eight weeks should be long enough. The doctor recommended three but my research (and pain) indicated that was not long enough.  I probably should have seen a sports injury doctor.  Starting slow will help me determine if I really am ready.

I want to run.  

Who would have ever thought that those words would ever come out of my mouth? Certainly not me!

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Stress Eating Does Exist

I've had some good days, I've had some bad days.  I have lost three of those regained pounds and maybe I would have lost them all if I had been better.  I'm not going to complain though, and hopefully by this time next week I can be down the rest. . .although Tom will be paying a visit around then.

I'm a stress eater.  I would guess that many people probably are but some people are probably better at controlling themselves.  Did you know that stress increases the hormone called cortisol?  Higher levels of cortisol can make you crave sweet and salty food.  If anyone tells you there is no such thing as "stress eating", they might not have experienced it, but it does exist.

This week has been stressful.  I was promoted into a new position at work without warning.  Everything will be fine, but the initial transition has been overwhelming.   This, of coarse, leads me to bad food choices. These bad choices are mine and I think it's important that I can recognize that I make the bad choices because if I were to stop acknowledging the bad choices this journey would be over and I would be headed back in the wrong direction.  Again, as long as I can maintain, I will be happy. 

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Getting Back on Track

Since my injury I have been bad, very very bad.  I have done virtually no exercise and I have been eating mostly whatever I want.  At the beginning, even though I was eating what I wanted, I would still consciously think about what I was eating. So even if I was eating bad I wasn't totally bad. Then came holidays. . . and of course all the good habits went out the window.  At the end of it though, I realize that it is time to be good again and I am (mostly) ready to get to it.

Exercise? I still haven't figured out how I want to deal with that. For now I will stick to working on my food intake.  I have gained 4.4 pounds back. It's not the end of the world but I definitely don't want to let it get any worse.

Day one, it's hard. It's not like I haven't done this before. I just start thinking "HOW did I do this?"  It's now that I notice how quickly my calories are consumed in a day.  Really, it's the same as before, I just have to get back into good habits.  Tomorrow I will pick up some cucumbers and tomatoes which make really great snacks when you're running out of calories. I will also make a conscious effort to drink more water again because I have been slacking in that department as well.


Hopefully I will have what it takes to succeed. And hopefully I will be back here to visit sooner rather than later. If I'm back later then that probably means I have failed.