Shoe Therapy

I was feeling a little down last night.  I had spent most of the day feeling hungry even though I'm sure I ate the same amount as always.  Maybe it was because I stuffed myself the day before when I went out with my friend and my stomach was expecting more food again. 

I chose to do the Wii Fit as I needed a switch and I took the body test to test my balance as I do each time I use it.  While I didn't view my weight, it still showed me the little line graphing my BMI. . .and it went UP.  For some reason I felt defeated for the rest of the evening.  I know that weight fluctuates during the day and I had eaten out the day before so I expected it but somehow it still discouraged me.

I solved my down mood with some online retail therapy. Just a new pair of runners, but I felt better after.  This journey could get expensive! 

Today was better.  Still feeling extra hungry.  I'm drinking the water to try to fill me up to discourage snacking, but I've been snacking none-the-less.  At least I've avoided anything too bad.  If anyone is reading this and has some advice, please offer it.  I wish there was some kind of pill to take to take the edge off hunger!

I did my gym orientation at work today.  There is an Apollo four-station gym, ellipticals, treadmills, dumbbells, and spin-cycles.  I really want to try spinning but they don't offer classes or anything.  I'm not brave enough to face a public gym on my own to go to a class.  Right now I'm trying to find an online guide for starters or if I could find a video I could download to my iPod that would be great.  I'll keep looking!  First I have to be brave enough to go though.

I did the Gazelle tonight and felt like it was a good workout.  My legs feel like they're getting toned already.  Maybe it's my imagination!

Anywho, time to sign off for the night! ~TTYL

It was a good bad day

I was so bad, but it was so good!!!

I actually didn't totally blow my calorie intake yesterday or at least not as bad as I thought I was going to. My goal is 1700 or less calories per day and yesterday I reached 1948.

I did manage to get a half hour in on the Gazelle when I got home but I would definitely say that I had to push myself to make it through. I wanted to stop so badly after twenty minutes. Today I think I am just going to do some time on the Wii Fit as that is more like fun so in some ways easier to do. I also have my gym orientation at work tomorrow so that I will have more options available for working out if I choose. I'm a little self conscious about working out with other people around but seeing as how I've actually been motivated lately, maybe I will notice less. I'm not sure if I can keep this up, but for now I'm still not letting myself stop.

My Big Fat First Weigh-In

It's the day I have been impatiently waiting for. The day that tells me that my efforts are being rewarded. And the number is. . .[drum roll please]. . .219.2!!! That's 5.8 pounds, yay me! I wish every week could be this productive but I know it won't. Week one is always the best. I would like to lose at least two per week.

Today is also the day I've been waiting for because I'm going out to dinner with one of my best-friends since high school. We are going to our favorite restaurant. My favorite items are very calorie and fat filled but I was looking at the nutrition guide on-line and really everything is the same. So I will order as best that I can and I will enjoy it and hopefully I will still have time to burn a few calories when I get home. I can't believe I am actually concerned that I might not get to exercise! This is so not me!

Day Six

By the time I post this it will be after midnight, but for me it's still today.

Not only did I do Wii Fit for 40 minutes (10 minutes yoga + 30 minutes other stuff) but I also did the Gazelle for 30 minutes this evening. Can you believe that? Me, who never exercises actually exercising twice? I can't believe it myself! I worry though. I worry that I'll skip a day, then not want to do it the next day either, and so on.

I know exercise is supposed to get easier the more often you do it but I was surprised that I barely broke a sweat tonight on the Gazelle. I will do it the same tomorrow and if I barely sweat again I might start some weight resistance.

Tomorrow is one week. I am proud of myself for getting through one week without feeling too much like heading in the wrong direction. That's why I prefer portion control because I can still eat what I want and not worry if it's unhealthy. Everything in moderation so I don't snap and eat everything all at once!

Just Me

I guess it's time to tell you a little about me. I am a female in my mid 30's, but I'm sure you already figured out that I was a girl.

I've never been the "skinny" girl. I was always sure I was overweight, but when I look back at my childhood pictures I don't think I really was. I just happened to weigh more than my "skinny" friends. Even through high school I weighed more and was about 160 pounds when I graduated. Now I would love to be that "thin". Right after high school I got together with the guy that I am currently with, it was comfortable, secure, and I was up to 180. Now that's just a goal weight for me.

I have two kids and stayed around 180 after both pregnancies, but started to gain after. Up, up, up I went, eventually reaching 220.  In 2006 I decided that it was time to lose some weight. I bought a food scale and concentrated on portion control. With no exercise I lost 40 pounds and got down to 180. Then I stopped. And up, up, up I went again.

Eventually I hovered around 220 and more recently I just stopped caring all together and ate anything and everything I wanted. I knew it was bad but I really didn't care at all. I can blame it on stress and emotions. . .but should I? It just sounds like an excuse and I don't want to make excuses. So there I was this past Monday suddenly deciding it was the day to get my ass in gear. And I weighed in at 225.

So here I am today, two sleeps away from my week in weigh in.  I'm am actually nervous to step on that scale.  I am sure I must have lost something, but I am scared to see the results.  Will they encourage me? Or discourage me?  All I know is right now I'm in the right place.  I actually want to play on my Wii Fit.  So I think I'm going to do that now.  TTYL!

Wheeeeeeee! (Or I should say Wii)

Just managed 21 minutes of Wii Fit last night. By the time I hunted down batteries for the balance board and then started a new profile, I didn't have much time. Life gets in the way sometimes especially when I procrastinate all evening. It was fun though. I think I'll do it again, although I want to Gazelle tonight.

Did you hear that?!? (Or read that I guess). I just said I want to Gazelle!!! That is an accomplishment as far as I'm concerned because I never want to exercise. Yay!

I know, it's only day five and I am so fighting to keep myself on track.  It's not like me wanting to exercise is going to continue, but it did feel good to realize that I did.

I'm posting this early so I might come back and do another post later.  And I think that I might be ready to share a little bit about me soon but I'm not sure where to start.  ~Just Me

And I'm back!

It seemed easier tonight on the Gazelle. I guess the day off from it was good for me. My knees hurt a little bit, but it didn't seem as long even though I still did only 30 minutes.

I'm off to park my ass on the couch and watch some ER DVD's. We've been slowly working our way through the seasons when we have time. TTYL!

I Ate Chips Today!

I ate chips today and they were so yummy!!! It was a small bag, 200 calories, and I don't even feel guilty.  I didn't eat the pita bread I took for my lunch so it really added only an extra 70 calories to my day.  I have a dinner "date"next Monday with my best friend so I need to be good until then because I'm sure I'll blow it all that day.  We are going to our favorite restaurant so I will be bad.

So this Gazelle thing I've been exercising on is "no impact", you basically just swing your legs, but my knees were really hurting last night.  I am going to take the night off.  I might drag out the Wii Fit if I can get my ass in gear because I worry that if I take the night off I may never get going again.  It would be so easy just to not do anything at all.

By the way, back to my chips. . .they were Ketchup chips. I love ketchup chips!!! If you are reading from the US, you have to try them sometime, I don't think they have them there. Om nom nom.