Baby Steps

I woke to a text from my cousin saying lets go for a walk today. I am proud of her for realizing that today was the day to do it, because tomorrow's weather looks to be less desirable to walk in. (I mentioned in a previous post that I had given us an exercise "ultimatum" of starting by Monday.) It was only a half hour, and only burned an extra 100 calories for the day, but she needs to start slow, so if that's what it takes, then that is what we will do.

Off to the Jets viewing party tonight! That means beer and pizza! Again, I do not begrudge myself for this. Tomorrow I have nothing planned therefore I can revisit my healthier habits.

Old Habits Are Hard to Break

Argh!!! I made a rash impulse decision to get some pretzel bites with cheese sauce at work last night! I have to remember to be more conscious of the decisions I make when it comes to eating. Old habits are no doubt hard to break, but I plan on breaking them.

Don't beat yourself up over bad decisions. We are used to making decisions on the fly. We have to "train" ourselves to make different choices though. Or to stop and think about our choices first.

I did have extra calories to work with yesterday. I worked the second job and made 12000 steps, and burned approximately 2600 calories so thankfully, it worked out okay. Again, even if it didn't work out, I would still need to move on. 

I will continue to work on making better choices and soon that will be the normal habit again.

Getting There

Day two was easy, but only because I worked my second job which allows me to burn extra calories. I still have to be food responsible on those days, but I did well.

Day three. . .well that was a pre-planned birthday dinner at the Keg so I already knew that was going to be "bad". I have always been okay with those kind of days. If you never allow yourself some enjoyment, you will eventually find it too hard to keep up with your weight-loss plan. So balance the "bad" with more good and it will be okay.

I have started laying out some plans for losing this weight. First, exercise. My walking buddy is a bit more out of shape then I so she asked to start small. I set out an "ultimatum" for us though. We start with a minimum 30 minutes by Monday. She agreed!

I need to do this. I need to be in the right place to do it. I really hope I am.

It's Been a Long Time

Well, well, well. . .it seems I am back here again. Once again hoping for a new day one. I seem to do better when I talk to myself in here so I realized I should come back.  I have hosted many weight-loss challenges over the last two years, but all I have done is yo-yo with each challenge. I am thinking that I do my best on my own.

I stepped on the scale this morning. . .196.4. Too close to 200 for my comfort.

I tracked my food today, it's a start. I didn't meet my calorie goal, but I didn't go over my calories burned, so that's a start.

20 pounds. 176.4.  That's not a lot to ask of myself. I have to remind myself that I am capable of achieving this.

Do you believe weight-loss is mental? I do. And my attitude switched back to the I don't care attitude for a while now and I don't know why. I need to care, I need to take care of me.

Hopefully I will be back here soon to tell myself that I am doing a good job working on my goal.

It's Been Awhile

I can't believe I haven't posted in a month!!! Wow! I really have had nothing remarkable to tell you though. I can tell you how I was lazy, because I was, but I did do decent with my eating, however, I have only lost 3 pounds. 

Last week something changed. I honestly can't say what it was, but suddenly I had a REALLY GOOD food day where I unintentionally ate low carb, this continued on to a second low carb day (and by low carb I mean low carb for me compared to what I am used to). I actually found out that carb withdrawal is a REAL THING! Since I was already "paying for" having a couple of "low carb" day, I continued all week! Suddenly, it wasn't so hard! And that's the best part of being on a health journey, it's when it doesn't seem so hard anymore.

Today I finally had the urge to EXERCISE! I have had it in my thoughts more often lately, but I just couldn't motivate myself. Today was Canadian Thanksgiving and I definitely blew my day. However when I got home I put on my runners and headed downstairs to exercise. Why? Because I no longer had a choice. (Of course I did, but I NEEDED to do it to make sure my output was greater then my input!)

I'm hoping that today is just the first day of a long streak of feeling the need to exercise. I am hopeful because I have just felt different this past week.

There may be more to this sudden change in my journey but I'm not ready to elaborate yet. :)

Day 4

So I know the time line doesn't make sense but I started a 90 day challenge on Tuesday, so today is day 4 of that challenge, and day 4 of my do-over. On Tuesday I weighed in at my heaviest since I started my weight loss journey five years ago.

These 4 days have been great. I haven't struggled too much with food thankfully. I started with an It Works Cleanse. It's a two day cleanse designed to promote healthy colon function. Then on day 2 I started my journey with Thrive. I have nothing amazing to report about that yet. I have already done two three-day trials previously, and I have always felt like I have needed longer, so today is day three again, but this time I get to go until I stop! I am excited to see if I feel any results. Better sleep and less aches and pains are part of the "promises", and those two things could help to promote my motivation.

One thing I am lacking is the drive to work out. I am just not there mentally (and that could be related to being so tired all the time). Weight loss and fitness are super mental, and some people don't understand that. Especially those that are already fit. One of my biggest pet-peeves are people who used to be overweight who look down at people who are obese. It's like they forget what it was like to be there. Thankfully I know that I am at the edge of getting my own self motivated, and I am sure it is coming. 

Change is Coming Soon!!!

I'm actually looking forward to my upcoming 90-day challenge! What I am not looking forward to is stepping on the scale and seeing what kind of damage I have done. Yes, my day one was 2 weeks ago, but that turned into a disaster. I have already said there is thinking you are ready, and actually being ready. The difference being that you'll know you were not ready when you fall off the wagon.  Right now, I feel ready. 

It's going to be hard. . .it always is. BUT I have done it before and I WILL do it again. 

Once upon a time I lost 60 pounds. . .now I'm pretty sure I have now put at least 1/2 that back on, so my goal is 20 pounds. This is not unrealistic. This is a very reasonable and obtainable goal. Weight loss is very mental in my opinion so I really have to work on being stronger then myself!

And if you are interested in this 90 day weight loss challenge,  please feel welcome to leave a comment, or if you prefer to be private you can DM me on Instagram, @andreasweets1.