Disaster. . .but a new plan

Things are not going great. I did lose 0.6 of a pound last week, so I guess that's better then none. My self-control has been a disaster, but I am looking at the bright side. . .my official 90-day weight loss challenge doesn't start until Tuesday. So now I'm thinking I might was well enjoy myself while I can. My original thought had been to lose a bit before the challenge because I was ashamed of what I had gained, but at this point, it's not too promising.

I am also going to be trying something new! A friend has been posting about Thrive by Le-Vel*, and how good she's been feeling. Her husband has been using it as well and has lost 16 pounds in a month! Of course I'm always interested in trying new things, especially if they might help me make progress. And I need more energy, and I need an appetite suppressant, so the Thrive Experience I have chosen is a weight-loss combo. 

Just to clarify, yes, I am still an It Works girl. Love the products! The Greens have kept me cold free since November and even that was a tiny, brief cold. Before that, a year cold-free.  I am never against trying something new and I personally see no reason why I can't try another product from another company. 

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Losing, but not in the good way

I'm losing the food battle today. I was good and then a co-worker wanted fries and I couldn't didn't say no, in fact, I drove her there!!!  I am slightly over my calories and I'm feeling so hungry. Not every day can be perfect, but I will fight to do my best!

Tomorrow is another day which will have its own challenges, I'm sure. I'm not throwing in the towel. I will keep fighting tomorrow, and the next day and the next day and so on!

So I'm getting ready for bed the other night and hubby is making a salad to take to work with him for lunch. He has also bought cereal that he likes to eat for breakfast before work. This is great because he usually has Tim Hortons for breakfast, and then a chocolate bar or some junk for lunch. I was suddenly hopeful that maybe his health kick would help with my commitment. However, I'm not sure how far he will go, because once I was in bed I heard him go in the cupboard for chips {insert face palm}. At least he is making better choices when he cooks now so I am benefiting so far at least!

Day 2

I'm not sure why, but I haven't shared with anyone that I have restarted this journey. I did better, I think, the first time around when no one knew what I had set out to do, so maybe I'll keep it quiet for now. I have plans on Friday that will probably have a cheat meal involved, but so far, a whole two days in, I have no desire to cheat.

I have done well these first two days. I know it's only two days but each day I do well is one step towards success. I did a two day cleanse, and my eating is on point. The next step is to get some activity happening. My step count was low today because I didn't walk the mall at lunch, so I will need to work on getting active on days like today.

I will weigh in on Friday morning to see the results of the cleanse and the controlled eating. Perhaps Fridays should be my weigh-in day since my cheat meal will likely happen on the weekends. As in the past, I will call them pre-planned self-sabotage days! 😉

I can't update every day as I don't have a lot to say, but I still need to try to keep this journal of my journey updated. I hope I can stick to it!

And a Whole New BIG FAT DAY ONE!!!

Once upon a time, I lost 50 pounds. Actually, it was 60, but I put 10 back on and stayed there for a good while. I was good with that weight, 50 pounds was no small feat, and I was happy there. For the last year I have had several ups and downs with my weight and right now I am up 20 pounds which horrifies me. I cannot go up any further, I need to get my ass in gear! However, I am feeling greatly unmotivated.

I haven't posted since my last re-start in January. When I read that post I realized that I am in the exact same spot now as I was then. I am not very good at this obviously. This time I need to find the attitude that I had when I first started this journey five years ago. I also need to take the time to update this journal and keep myself on track. As of today I am hopeful, but we all know tomorrow can be a completely new story. Wish me luck!!!

A Whole New Lazy Big Fat Unmotivated Ass

I know I fell off the earth after my last post and I could give you a ton of excuses if I thought about it, but I really had nothing to say. It was exercise and food, that was all, I met my goal, then I blew it bad.

Let's call today "Day 0".  

After a weekend of bad, I weighed myself and it turns out that I weigh more then I have in FOUR years. Is that depressing? Hell yes! I looked in the mirror and I could see it too. In fact I saw it all day before I even weighed myself, and I already knew. (Yes, I weighed myself after dinner but it's not like I'm going to magically lose five pounds or more overnight!)

I have ALWAYS said you have to be ready to lose weight. I don't feel ready. The only thing I feel ready to do is cry. And I only have myself to blame. These feelings are kind of overwhelming because they are difficult to describe. I am angry with myself for sure. Yet I still have no desire to exercise.

I think because I know how long it took to lose and how dedicated I was may be what is making me angry with myself. I consciously let myself do this to me without really taking into account of how it would make me feel when it was time to deal with the consequences.

I am really hoping that this is just a bad day and that I can pull myself out of this funk tomorrow. I have food ready to be prepped and I must plan to exercise tomorrow night. Tonight I just might have to go to bed early to put this misery I feel behind me.

EXCUSES!!! I'm Full of Them.

After a mediocre week two, I decided I needed to kick it back up for week three. And then came the flu. Apparently I can fight colds like a superhero, but the flu, not so much. The worst is that I didn't even lose any weight from it.  Even on the mend I was tired, I was weak, and I was lazy.

So along comes week four, and I have a couple of Jets shifts, and also a game to attend. I end up barely exercising in week four either. I was tired, I was LAZY.

Seriously, this is not how it is supposed to be. I am supposed to do well, I am supposed to inspire. Instead, I just suck.

On the other hand, I still see progress. I may only be down 4.4 pounds since day one (not bad in my own opinion) but there is definitely shape changes happening. I love, love, love my calf muscles. However, I HATE Jillian! She's such a bitch! I cannot possibly jump up and down for two minutes straight!!! Ugh! It's not that I get winded, it's that my legs want to collapse. I just keep telling myself that it will get better. . .and I keep hoping it does. Maybe someday. (And maybe she's not a bitch but sometimes I feel that way.)

So I just peeked back at the first month of my blog at start of my weight loss journey, and I see many ups and downs. This makes me realize that this is all part of the journey and we just have to keep going. Why? Because in another four weeks, I want to be a better me. 　

Week Two. . .Uh Oh!!!

Week two did not start off as well as week one. I had my first cheat day. . .or what I prefer to call a "self-sabotage" day! I was worse then I had planned though and I actually felt guilty after, probably because I also went two days without exercise. When I did workout after those two days, my body ached, and I had trouble completing some of the exercises! I did not let that discourage me.

Monday came and I was pleasantly surprised that I didn't gain with that cheat day, but then came another cheat day (unplanned. . .it happens sometimes). With that happening and PMS, I decided to wait until next week to weigh in again.

I am not sure why, but I am forgetting to drink my water. My first time around I drank tons of water, not sure why I haven't restarted that habit yet. Water is so important! I must make that a priority as well!

Sometimes life gets in the way of the best made plans but it is important to keep going. Don't let a bad day or two send you in the wrong direction.