Starting to Feel "It"

Did I mention that I was starting to feel "it" again?  What is "it"?  "It" is the wanting to exercise, wanting to eat right, wanting to do well!  Feedback would be great though.  No one has noticed except my hubby, but maybe he's just actually being nice since he sees the effort I'm putting into this.  The people I see are the same people that I see every day so they may not notice.  I'm looking forward to seeing someone who hasn't seen me in a few months to see if they notice.  That will be the big reward.

Yesterday I had a good workout.  I burned 280 calories.  I won't do it again tonight because I can feel the pain starting.  I know you are not supposed to work the same muscle group two days in a row but I love that I can burn that many calories in 30 minutes compared to 30 minutes on the Wii Fit.  I should start biking again in the evenings since it is cooler now but this evening it's too windy.  I have been looking online for a used recumbent bike but I don't want to spend a lot so I will just keep my eyes open for now.

I'm looking forward to a good week and hopefully some great results on Monday!

To Be Continued. . .

Oh motivation, where have you gone?  Yesterday I was ready to kick ass but now I'm ready for bed.  I don't really feel like doing the Wii Fit but the Gazelle is downstairs and my daughter is outside so I can't lock up until she comes in.  If I wait much longer though I may not get my ass in gear at all.

Oh my G__(goodness)!!!!!!  This has got to be the most boring blog EVER!  Me complaining about how unmotivated I am.  Although, that is the title of the blog I suppose.  My big, fat, unmotivated ass.  So let's go, let's be motivated, LET ME GET MY ASS IN GEAR!!!!

To be continued????




Continued. . .

Definitely not my best effort but I did it! A half hour on the Gazelle and I sure had to push myself through it. I managed to burn 270 calories at least. I know, now I'm whining about actually exercising, but this blog is a diary of my weight loss journey and I have so many negative feelings that are coming out. This IS my journey, these ARE the feelings that I feel. I wish it was all easier, I wish I had more positive things to say but right now I'm still stuck right here so this me, this is my journey.

My Big Fat Unmotivated Ass, Take Two

Well, I'm pretty sure my weigh in tomorrow morning will not show a loss.  The week, when I look back, was not very good.  I ate (mostly) the right things but did go over on calories too often and certainly did not exercise enough.  This weekend was a disaster though.  My own disaster.  A movie date with my daughter with popcorn AND nachos, followed by a family day with a train ride and no healthy choices at our destination.  Then I came home and made a healthy dinner. . .followed up with apple crumble, d'oh!  The apple crumble alone would not have been a total disaster as it was only 330 calories with just 1.7g of fat but after the rest of the day (including a slurpee), it was not wise.

I am finally feeling it again.  What "it" is exactly is the feeling I had on the very first day when I started this 13 weeks ago.  The feeling that it is time to get My Big Fat Unmotivated Ass in gear! I need to make sure that in addition to eating well every day that I exercise more than the two times I have done in each of the last two weeks. I want to do it now, but it's always easier said then done.

Recipe Time! Baked Jalapeño Peppers

Here's a nice, low calorie snack I made tonight.  Okay, low calorie only if you can stop after a couple!

Baked Cream Cheese Jalapeño Peppers

12 fresh Jalapeño peppers, halved lengthwise, stems, seeds and membranes removed
1/2 container Philadelphia Light Cream Cheese - Chive & Onion
1/4 cup finely shredded Cheddar Cheese

Pre-heat oven to 425.

In bowl, combine cream cheese and shredded cheese.  I also used 1/2 of one jalapeño and chopped it finely and mixed it.

Spoon cheese mixture into jalapeños.  Place on foil lined baking sheet.  Bake for 15 minutes.

Yum!

Note: The peppers I used were about 3 inches long, if using larger peppers either double recipe or use 6 peppers only.  Also double the nutritional info.

(I forgot to take a picture until I already dirtied my plate!)

Calories, Nasty Little Buggers!

A few calories over my goal today but a 290 calorie workout took care of those and a few other of those nasty little buggers. Going over by a few seems to be my motivation to exercise and once I start exercising I don't just want to take care of my extra calories, I want to do more!  I'm not saying that I will purposely go over on calories, but when I do at least I'm getting my ass in gear!

 

The Best Inspiration of All!!!

The best inspiration of all is stepping on the scale and hitting the twenty pound mark.  Yes, that's right, my official weigh in yesterday morning was two pounds less than my sneak peak on Saturday!  In twelve weeks I have lost twenty pounds!!!! I was so excited!  It should be self-motivation but unfortunately it hasn't helped.

Sadly, it's more of the same to report.  I still haven't been too interested in exercise.  Tonight I was  going to give my house a good vacuum again because that makes for good exercise but I've been so busy getting the kids ready for school that I just don't feel like it.  I am going to at least walk to the store later so I can say I did something tonight.

What can I do?  I'm tired of writing about it and I'm sure you're tired of reading about it.  I know it's easy to say or think "just get off your ass and do it".  Unfortunately right now it's just not cutting it.  I hope. . .I hope my get-up-and-go comes back soon because if I could lose twenty more pounds in twelve more weeks I would be ecstatic!

I Cheated

I cheated. . .but not in the way that you would think. I weighed myself this morning. I have lost 2.4 pounds this week for an overall total of 18.2 pounds! This will give me the motivation I need to stay on track this weekend so when I do my official weigh in on Monday I will not have increased over the weekend! This is great! The reason I wanted to weigh myself is because ALL my clothes are starting to feel too loose, including my stretchy yoga pants.

I guess I should say that for the last two days I have been behaving. It's been hard to stay on track calorie-wise despite the PGX. I still eat just as much but spread it out further so I don't get the hunger pains. Thursday I went over on calories so I forced myself to the Gazelle and burned those extra calories (and more). Yesterday I did Wii Fit. Neither day did I get that "feels good" high that I was getting during exercise but I hope that feeling returns soon because it is more encouraging.

For now, I still feel stuck in some sort of funk but as long as I can be in this funk and not fall off the wagon it will be okay.