I'm actually kind of happy with my body right now. I'm not skinny, but I'm skinnier then before. I still have flab, rolls, whatever you want to call it. I look in the mirror though and I see this good looking girl staring back at me. I love my face. My face is definitely thinner.
I love wearing clothes that fit! I mean, I always wore clothes that fit me, but I can wear "skinny" jeans, you know, jeans that actually hug my body! My capri's are form fitting, and the ones that aren't are already semi-too big on me. I still try to make sure that my clothes are flattering and do not accentuate the bad curves.
Being happy with my body does not mean that I'm done. I'm still going to run. I'm still going to try to eat my best (most of the time). And I plan to start some short workouts at home with dumbells. I am zapped from work this week, but I'm sure I will start soon enough. My "wow" feelings are currently MIA, but that won't knock me down!
Went to McDonalds. . .ordered a wrap. . .may as well have ordered a burger when you look at the calories and fat. Face palm!
That's all for today. (Fail!)
That's how I feel; wow! I wish I could feel like this all the time.
Last night I was eager for my run. I did some great stretches before and after and I can feel a little pain in my hamstrings today and it makes me feel good! The run itself has me puzzled because I can't, for the life of me [what does that saying really mean anyway?] figure out how I was managing to run for a half hour straight before my injury! I ran with wrist weights too! I usually take those off after the warm up (sometimes after the first run set).
I wish, I WISH I could feel like this all the time! It's so satisfying! I want these feelings to stick around for a while please.
Now, if only I felt wow like this when it came to housework!
Food. . .food is my enemy. I'm sure every person trying to lose weight has said this at one time or another. I am saying it now. I cannot seem to curb the hunger lately. I am always hungry! (Yes, I know only "bad" food should be considered the enemy, but this is how I feel at this very moment so I am going with this feeling for now.)
I started thinking today that maybe this is the weight I am meant to be at. That this is the weight that my body is comfortable with. I got down to 170 without feeling deprived but if I expect to get lower then maybe it would require more changes that I am not willing to make. For now, I plan to do my best to fight my urges and not give in. I know that other people who are in to major fitness and/or diet would think I am not trying hard enough, not putting enough effort in, but to me, it was never about putting a lot of effort in (call me lazy). It was about making enough changes to get where I needed myself to be and quite frankly, I am here.
I am not giving up, I am not taking a break. This journey is not over. I will continue to wherever it leads me.
I have not been on my best behavior this week. I have made bad choices, but I have done my runs. Sunday I will run again.
I, alone, made these choices. I cannot blame anyone. I cannot place blame on anything that has been brought into my environment. I made the choice to eat it. I was much better at choosing right in the beginning. Lately though, I have been allowing myself to choose wrong.
It's much of the same-as-always, I know. I cannot guarantee anything more exciting to read. This is how the journey goes. It's not always a smooth ride, but you cannot give up, you cannot throw in the towel. You have to look at tomorrow as a new start. It is a new day and you can make completely different choices. You CAN choose to have more good days then bad.
 |
| Still my favorite! |
It was a pretty good first week even if I did only lose one pound. I mean who commits to losing weight the week before PMSing?!? Me, that's who!
I did really feel good getting back in to running last week, and I'm looking forward to week two! However Monday kicked my ass so I postponed running until today. Then today we had no water and no power so we went out for dinner, no run! Grrrrrr! Really, I'm looking forward to it though. Tomorrow, Friday, Sunday. That's the plan!
Not much to say tonight but I really agree with this:
I feel good! {Insert James Brown here} Second run and I am amazed at how good I feel after. Not physically good, but mentally good. I am looking forward to run number three.
The part that does not feel good is my foot. I changed insoles but I could still feel some discomfort in my foot while I was running. I am feeling some pain now as well. I will not give up, but I am upset that after wasting eight weeks resting my foot, it appears to still be a problem. However, unless the pain becomes constant I will keep going.
Short and sweet tonight as I have nothing else to report! Have a good night!
