I have failed you! I have failed me! I fed the stress, I fed it a lot! The sad part is that I had the will power to not feed the stress but I made the choice to feed it anyway. Yes, it made me feel better for that moment, but it did not solve the problem. The result, I'm right back where I started three weeks ago.
I continue on this downward spiral and I fully understand the emotional connection people have to food.
Once upon a time. . .just kidding! My previous job was extremely stressful and I ate ALOT. When I started my new job four years ago, it was far less stressful and for probably the first time, I could leave work smiling. After a while I decided it was time to lose weight and I did it because I had the time to dedicate to eating properly and less stress resulting in less comfort eating. Then I switched to a new position and initially I struggled with my eating habits. I was stressed, I had no time to eat regularly while I was at work, so I went through a bad period. Things settled as I learned my new job, and I was able to continue my journey. Now the stress has hit the fan. Despite my best effort to try to stay "relaxed" as soon as my stresser shows up I find myself in a very bad place again and it's happening every day lately! I eat! And I eat more!
So once again I am approaching Monday and planning on conquering the week. I plan to eat well and maybe even start exercising again. . .I believe this week we will finally be getting back into our regular routines so hopefully that can lead to some normalcy. I wish me luck!!!
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