I'm Back!

I'm back!  Or on my way back to normal at least. 

I went to Las Vegas last weekend and since I have been back I haven't been able to be consistent with eating or exercise. 

I started a new job two weeks ago and the training has been mentally exhausting, plus I missed two days when I was in Vegas which means I'm behind too.  Eating at work hasn't been bad though as there is no time!  I have been forgetting to take my vitamins there though and I have not been drinking enough water.  I have not necessarily eaten the best at home either.  

Exercise has been non-existent.  I'm not sure when I will get back to running.  With the amount of walking we did in Vegas, my tendonitis was super painful and has slowly been subsiding but it is not well enough to run on yet.  On top of that I got a shin splint!

I am hoping to get lots of rest this weekend so that I can get back into a groove next week.  Tomorrow I need to catch up on my household chores and get some groceries as my fridge is bare (except for a whole lot of cheese that I bought in the US).  I need to get some healthy choices in there.  And last, but not least, I hope to get back to running by mid-week.

Too Many Bad Days

Sliding. . .sliding. . .sliding. . .sliding.

Too many bad days happening and I can't stop.  I was bad today, not really bad, but bad enough when I know I have two bad days in a row around the corner.  I did not make the better choices today. . .and I chose the bad ones, the indulgent ones.  I have no one to blame but myself.

Tomorrow I will be good.  Tomorrow I will make better choices.  Tomorrow will be better.

 

As my "punishment" I will revise my first planned bad day, and I must follow through with that decision.  My second planned bad day will take place as planned because it's the one I have been waiting for!  It's getting together with a good friend (and our kids), eating somewhat bad, and planning our upcoming trip!

 

Here's the truth about my bad day today though. . .I chose to eat bad foods, and not in moderation as I usually encourage.  However the only real bad is that I will not have a so-called calorie deficit today.  By eating good food, being aware of portion sizes, and keeping the "bad" to a minimum (moderation) a person can usually get out of a day with a calorie deficit.  If you watch The Biggest Loser then you know that one pound of fat equals 3500 calories so the more often you can make it out of the day with a deficit, whether it be 100 calories or 500 calories, you are losing weight!

 

Remember:

 



Getting It Done (Slowly)

52 pounds! It comes off slower now, but that's to be expected. Especially since I keep my effort minimal. One teenie-tiny pound at a time. . .it's fine with me! 160 still seems impossible, but really it isn't. Even if I never get there I truly am happy at what I have achieved so far.

I rocked a 30 minute run on Thursday. After completely bombing my Tuesday run after four days off, I was happy that I felt good on Thursday. I still haven't decided on the next step. If I can keep up at 30 I will always be happy if I CAN rock it.

I haven't had a chance to run since Thursday though.  My plans are to run tomorrow, Friday, Sunday, then either Tuesday or Wednesday before I leave for my mini-vacation to Las Vegas to see Bon Jovi!!!  I plan on being very, very bad (food-wise) while I'm away, so hopefully I will only put a couple pounds on, if any as we will be doing a lot of walking I'm sure.

Short and sweet tonight, but I just wanted to keep up to date on what has been happening for the last week or so.

Why Run?

One thing I decided (or realized) this past week was that when I run, even if the results are not my best, at least I'm doing something.  I mean it's not like I was going to do anything productive with that time (on most days anyway) so why not use that time to go for a run!

Why did I choose running as my go-to physical activity?  I would see someone jogging and think "I want to do that".  It would have been easy to give up when I realized how hard it actually was to get started, but I wanted to do it.  I'm still not great and maybe I will never be great but at least I'm doing it!

It's time to get things back on track after almost a week of being not-so-good.  I could say I tried, but not really.  I should hang my head in shame for how awful I was on Easter!  I really let myself go and it was the most I have overindulged in a very long time.  I definitely felt regret afterwards.  Regret? Yup!  Oh how uncomfortably full I was!!!  A lesson learned, I hope!  Being back at work after six days off actually does help with keeping things in order though.  I take all my food for the day with me so I can make sure my choices are good ones in advance.

Nachos and Oz

I have said this before and I will say it again. . .I'm sorry it has been a while between posts.  It's just that I don't have anything to talk about.  Nothing new and noteworthy has been happening, and I have had no new questions or revelations about my progress.  I'd rather not post just saying "today was a {fill-in-the-blank} day" or "this is what I ate", etc.  I need to be able to share something whether it be an accomplishment, a goal, a question, or even a frustration. 

I have made it to 30 minutes for three runs in a row now.  It's getting easier each time.  Not easy, just easier.  I imagine I should start trying for a longer distance but truthfully I'm not willing to commit to more time.  I suppose I could try running faster, but I don't want to commit the effort!  I know, I know, I should do one or the other already!  Let me think on it for a bit!

I took my kids to see Oz the Great and Powerful tonight.  I had nachos.  They are my favorite movie theatre treat and I have been looking forward to them all week!  I think it helps me to behave at other times if I already have something bad planned out.  That way I know I have to be good during the time leading up to it! 

It is spring break for the kids so tomorrow will likely involve eating on the go, and the weekend promises a birthday party and likely Easter dinner.   I will try my hardest to be good!  Willpower please don't fail me this week!

FIFTY!

I did it!  I made 30 minutes on my run last night!  I knew I had it in me, I just had to remember not to give up!  I felt good mentally afterwards, running definitely releases endorphins leaving me feeling that I am heading for some good days ahead (for food and exercise that is).

For the record, I did eat those cookies yesterday, but they saved me from a bigger calorie catastrophe. . .carrot cake!  I resisted the cake and ate my cookies and then I was satisfied.

Now here's the best news. . .I have officially lost fifty pounds! Nope, scratch that, fifty-one!  And it feels good!  I really feel like I should share my success with my friends (aka share this blog), however as proud as I am that I have lost fifty pounds, I also almost feel ashamed to admit that I had fifty pounds to lose in the first place.  I should have never had those first forty-five pounds to lose, I should have never let it get that bad.  I have to work up the courage to let it out there!  I can't believe how personal everything feels when I look at letting other people in.  I'm going to sit on it for a few days (or however long it takes) and hopefully work up the courage because I am actually VERY proud of myself for doing it!

Looking Up

I finished off my last post by saying "There's always going to be some "down's" on this journey.  The important thing is not to give up and to know the "up's" will be there again soon!"  I am living by this right now because I am on a big slope of  "down",  and I really AM looking forward to the "up's" returning soon.  I know they are in there and I have to remember to find them soon!

I am hoping that today is the "up" day that I need.  I'm still super hungry (damn PMS) but I do plan on going for a run tonight.  I will also try my hardest to be good food-wise (although I probably will slip in a couple of small cookies!).  I really don't have a lot of time so the dishes will have to remain unwashed and probably a few other chores undone so that I can use the time for a run.

And I'm hoping it's a good run!  My body has had a four day rest from running so I am hoping to push it to 30 minutes again.  The rest of me is tired though.  I feel like if I can make the 30 minutes that I will be back climbing up-hill again.  I really want to be there!

Starting in a month I will be working a set shift at work.  I will no longer have to work the "late" shift and I am hoping that will help put difficult weeks, such as these, to a rest.